i said those words. yes. I'm sorry. it was a private thought that no one you know could read.

the way you reacted to that is much mre public. for one thing.. at least.. this, is dead.

you think I'm upset because you got closer to him.. oh please.

did you ever think about how I'm trying maintain our friendship? I keep making mistakes, yes. You get riled up too easily recently.
It makes one rethink certain things.

anyway, all you ever talk is about him. like..

What should you do if a certain situation arises? Whether blah blah blah.. What he wants to know.. What are his wants..

I'm not good when it comes to juggling friendships and relationships. I admit it. Do you?

but at least I'm trying!

and I do look out for you. I may be the one who hurt your feelings but I'll be damned if I let someone I know hurt you.

I'm not like you. I'm not a person who can actually maintain a friendship/s.

good example would be my own jie. she's around yes, but i'm nt as close to her as compared to sec sch days. heck. i don't even know what's going on..

scenario: girl meets guy. sparks fly and somehow that fella becomes the pillar of strength and confidante. everyone else takes a step back.

i may be cruel for saying this but.. I prefer you before he came
into your life..

and sometimes i feel like, your anger for Dora is sometimes inflicted on me because you can't do much to her. thn again, it's just me.

oh well. fuck it.

I'll text you on the 20th.

bye.

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