HI :D

today, shaa isnt lazy,
tht's why shaa is posting today :D

shaa knows she has no life,
but shaa still wants to blog.
so just cheer shaa on okay ?

... .... .. .. ..... .. ... okayyy. lame.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAA !
omg.
it's weird talking like a third person when it's yourself.

im finally going to be on th comp more often :D

want to know why ?

BABY BOUGHT RAM FOR MY IDERTIC COMP :DD

it's not alot but it's still pretty awesome :D

because !
i now have no more lag !
YAY !

i can now pwn jiejie, if i were ever to redownload audi.

but thn again.
im not sure if i want to.

i like th way i am now,
and my parents obviously do.

i get too into audition,
and practically forget my responsibilities,
get into childish fights cos of some kiddo acting like some big-shot,
getting emotionally disturbed cos your audi friend got into trouble,
or got into some sticky situation thn you cant help, but to save tht friend.

all tht, just to hit th arrow keys, number pad and spacebar.

stupid? heroic?
i dont know

but thn, i also have some pretty good memories,
like how i can laugh like mad while challenging jie at getting most bad,
or just stoning in a room to chat while listening to music,
finding good friends (then), met people tht changed your life, literally.

so i guess, tht part is good.

good and bad, i guess.
cant think of it all from th top of my head.

in a nutshell,
im just not sure, if i want to throw th 'me' now.
cos even as im typing this,
i know im better thn last time,
but it's not good enough.

i dont have time for friends (if i have any left, tht is),
but instead it's on work, travelling everywhere,
or with family since im stuck at home most of th time,
being booked during weekends for tuition,
and just spending whatever time left with baby as he sends me home.

thing is, i realize.
i cant keep up friendships through chatting online or whatnot.
im better at meeting a person every week or smth like tht.

maybe it's because of my used-to-be-laggy comp,
thn i just cant be bothered to go online, cos it just makes me pissed off,
and i'll throw it onto my mom or brother when they ask for help,
thn they'll get pissed, and i'll feel guilty,
it's like a whole damned cycle that i want to break out from.


cherie ann,
i miss you.
it's actually pretty obvious tht i do,
but you're not around to see it.
cos we dont get to see each other often.

i cant make an effort cos online crap aint my forte,
im just, better off meeting you and making you laugh on my own.

typing everything makes it seem emotionless,
dont you think so?

there's a reason why i dont have online friends,
and maybe more reasons as to why i dont have any now.

im not good at friendships.
im hopeless with my social circle,
and maybe it's because i prefer it tht way.

i've been friendless since young,
so i dont know th knick knacks of making a good friendship.

i didnt realize you felt tht way. i really didnt.
cos i though you were okay with him,
cos i want you and him to be with me together.
not seperately.

you said something about,
how i felt whn tingting was leading her own life,
and tht i didnt realize you were somewhat feeling th same way.

tingting, is an important person to me,
just as important as you are.
im not lying, im not bending th truth either.

maybe it's because me and her got more memories to keep,
since i practically grew up with her,
seeing her change from a nerdy crybaby, to a stronger, confident crybaby.

thn whn i got all insecure about losing her, it hurt more.
we met up, and talked things through,
cried a few pails, but it was all worth it.

im just saying;
maybe. we should do tht too.

cos cherie, it's not tht i choose boyfs over friends.
i just dont know how to juggle th two,
cos im a bloody one-lane thinker.

for me, it's always,
as long everything is on my one straight track, im happy.
never thought about what the people i care about,
were actually feeling behind tht mask of theirs.

i dont expect you to understand me,
or what im thinking right now.
but i hope you wont give up on our scandally relationship,
cos i sure wont, eventhough im not doing shit.

but hey ;x
it's th thought tht counts ;x
hope you read this soon.

love you cherie ann.

-SHAA


i like white. dont you?
i know my stupid boyf cant live without black ;x
you you kuro dabian ;XX !

kidding baybeh <3~

hmm.
what else should i blog about.

OH YAAAA !

BABY WANTS TO GET IPHONE 3Gs :D

thn me and him same same phone.

wanna know why?
cos we want to kope th WiFi. LOL.

save moolah. smart or what?
HAHAHHAA !

so typical singaporean.

i guess i have to tighten my belt alr.
im learning how to save a little alr.

good right?
applaud laaaa ):

LOL.

need.to.control.impulsive.desires.to.buy.crap.rawrh.

okay la.
me stop here.
blog sounds pretty lengthy alr.
and i dont need to a boring blog to add on to my alr boring life.
tsk.

BYE !

-SHAA