i decided to blog today.
cos, my heart broke.

i pieced it together with white glue,
and it fell into pieces today.

tht look on his face,
tht spark lost from his eyes,
th furrowed brows,
his quivering lips..

ahh ..

i really couldnt get tht image out of my head..
for th fuuucking whole day.

spaced out alot,
but i got my act together for most part.

damnnnn cambridge at thomson.
you made me make my lucas afraid of me.

heartbreakingg .

i felt so bad afterwards,
thn th feedback from th old birds ..
really didnt help tht guilt ._.

lunched at yoshinoya,
th duration trip to th place was 'awesome'.

serious,
had a freakin sauna thing in th van .

a few more rides in th back,
i swear i'll lose those excess pudginess - -"

i got protruding tummy alr -sad face-

oh well !

at least i will now have abs,
and stronger arms .
HAHA !

oh ya .
got eye candy at work alr,
so dont need to stare at scrawny Chalice and puke .
WOO !

tomorrow will be at hillview,
hope i'll do okay ;x

-prays-

~*~**~**~*~

jiejie,
i know you mean well .

i know you'd never want to cause me or kor any pain .
but honestly..

what you're doing now..
is hurting us alot .

im just fifteen minutes away from you,
but whn you dont let me even see you,
to try and bring at least a smile to your face..

i feel useless, like im a goner.
i cant even do one miserable thing,
for someone i care so much for,
whn you alr did millions for me.

it's hurting kor more.
cos he loves you to th point of no return.
and i can see, it's for real .

trust me k?
my intuitions, very sharp one [:

i've never been wrong yet.

*

you can lean on me,
you can cry infront of me,
you can do anything you feel like .

but, just believe in me more ..

dont run away from us,
just because you think it'll make us worry less .

i know i dont text you everyday,
but i still worry about you..
especially after you told me about those ccb dogs ..

if they make you cry ..
i will go to your school and pick a fight .

you know i will.
you cried too much for qj alr .

and there's a snowball chance in hell,
will i ever let some fuuuckers make you cry again.

you're an awesome person,
and im not being sarcastic.

th way you think,
makes me feel like choking you ..
but it's endearing at th same time.

you're not a burden,
you're someone we love .

so, share your burden with us please.

i dont want to see you shed another tear,
no matter what th reason.

Love,
Shaaa .

~*~**~**~*

back to th happy part of th day !

im crapping with junny !

apparently she's a magnet for fishys .

tsktsk darling,
are you hiding magnets behind your eyes or smth ?
HAHA !

okay. cruel.
sorry ;X

psst !

i have a secret to share okay?

YIJUN !

loves my playlist.

HAHAHAHA !

apparently,
for her to like someones playlist,
is like near impossible .


well missy,
impossible is just possible with an im in front xD !

actually,
i like my playlist too !

cos it's not just one genre,
and it doesnt cause bleeding to th ears ;x


and i honestly believe,
cherie is weird in th head.

she wrote in her blog tht,
i dont love her enough to see th good side .

I BEG TO DIFFER ):

i love you too much, tht i can even love your bad side please .
HAHA !

today cheriekins got too tired,
so she slept early.

oh well,
she can read my blog tomorrow.
hehs .


OH YA !

JUNNN !
we'll go east coast and drown ourselves soon k ?
once i get th kaching and then we find off days.
we go drown :3

you know you want to. HAHA !

lovesloves !

-SHAA