CHERIE !

see seee seee !



I UPDATE LE !

dont be bored ;x



anything, you can just go read th quizilla stories ;x



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before i start,
i have to apologize .


it's going to be rant.
a stupid but very dramatic rant.

~



i cant believe,
for four years of ganship .
four years of fuuuucking memories .

i saw you grow up ffs ._.



did you forget everything ?
did you forget what we went through ..


you alr sacrificed your first jie,
and now you're gonna sacrifice me .

just for tht girl

._____.



i refuse to indulge in anymore vulgarities.
well, i'll try not to ;x



i know you changed .
and yes, i know it's inevitable .


whether good or bad,

it's up to th person's perspective.


apparently,
you started smoking, shoplifting ..
gangsterism was in alr in you from th start.
so it's not really a change.


th thing i cant believe, is tht..
you rather interrogate me, your jie .

for tht .. person.


and all i did was to ask an innocent question.


how come, she ended up with you..?

whn you barely spoke to each other .

thn apparently,
it was all thanks to jasper th fuucktard.

but i read his blog a tad bit too late.


you didnt talk to me,
you shot me tht question straightaway.

who th fuuck you think you're dealing with ?


im your jie,
tht's why i never showed you th other side of me .

you think im such a goody two shoes who doesnt do crap.

you're not th only one with connections okay?
i will deal with you if you still want to make this little mess escalate.


you're bored, i get it .

you want taiji . i know .


your kind, bo taiji bo life .
i know ah .
i know your every fuucking move .


there's a reason behind everything i do,
only you never bothered to find out .


guess,
we'll end it for real this time .

from 30th April, at 9 pm, onwards.

you're no longer my dii .


i dont know you.


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pfft.


one aquaintence after another .

you know what im truly grateful for ?



read below [:


scandal and jie .



th similar thing about you two is tht..
you had to face a crumbling friendship,
thn you could get this close to me .



qiu jin, ting and me .
xiaoting, cherie and me .

we all faced th same thing.



whenever im hurting,
you two could always know,
and never fail to give me a reason to smile .

you stood by me,
and i always tried to stand by you.

but sometimes, im really not good at it ;X



i love you two, more thn i love myself.
honest truth .



i'd risk as much as i possibly can,
just to keep you two beside me for always.



cherie scandal,

you suan me like no other,
and yet, i still love you.
you know how weird tht actually is ?


totally illogical .


you helped me,
figure out my muddled thoughts .

you cleared up my insecurities,
you let me depend on you so many times.
you even made me feel exceptional.


of course,
th last sentence was referring to th way,
you treated me whn we first became scandals ;x



you annoy me to hell and back,
you stick to me like glue,
you argue with me about almost anything,
you suan me like no tomorrow..


despite all those things,
i still love you, you stupid kuku (:

including your insecurities, fears and doubts.



i wont run from you,
i promised you tht night.
and this time,
i'll keep it .



ting jie,


what can i say about you ?
you're th jie i've always wanted,
but never had.


you're supportive,
yet will go against me .
you love me,
but will stay away from me.
you help me,
as well as nag at me.


but tht's what jies are for .


you were my first real friend,
you were th first to actually care genuinely.


no one can replace you,
tht's why only you and cherie can have my heart.



your cold jokes,
always made me laugh.

your scissors paper stone games,
always made me have tummyaches.

your indecisiveness,
is something i love to make fun of.

but through it all
you stuck by me,

jiejie,

thanks .


you're th best jie,
anyone could ask for..

and i wont trade you for anything in th world.



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im also grateful for th friends i've been blessed with.



Yijun, Justin and Vinn Kor.



all three of you,
sometimes get on my nerves.
and im sure, i get on yours.
hahas !



but, you've always been there.



vinn kor,

th one, who's never failed to give me good advice.

from th start, right to th end.

your words have always been true,

and like how i trust jie,

i believe in you too.



im glad tht, i got to know one of th rare good guys.

and i feel a tad bit lucky,

to have you as a kor,

even with your lame jokes.



be honored okay? ;x

to have me as your mei xD !





next up, th one and only



Yijun .



one year my senior,

but you acted so unlike your age.



we faced th harshness of th national day parade,

we hungered over th chocolate biscuits,

and made fun of th i.c's.



you never hesistated whn i needed someone.

you gave me your listening ear,

and not once, have you thought of me as anything bad.



we drifted,

but it doesnt seem strange to talk again,

when we do..



it's like, th gap was just an illusion.



th weird letters during school,

th confessions and th crushes.



i still remember everyone of them,

and im truly happy to know..

tht even after meeting Cherie,

you're still willing to be in my life :D !



bigbig honor indeed.

HAHA !





and lastly,



Justin .



i already thought of you as an interesting person,

whn we first met.

thn talked in malay,

eventhough cherie couldnt understand a thing ;X



thn you became my ranting outlet,

thn slowly a very irritating brother.



but if brother's arent irritating,

it aint normal right ?



you're protective, and nagging all at th same time,

but i thank you for that.



you became whatever i wanted you to be,

and you took my words seriously.

which normally, people wont ;x



you talked to me whn i was bored,

you listened to me whn i was frustrated

and vice versa.



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hees .

i really appreciate. everyone of you .



maybe my life, would be tragic if i didnt met you.

HAHA !

me? as those angsty adolescent ?
funny funny .

-SHAA