edited: 6.29 am . 26th March 2009 .

hey darlings,
i know this must be shocking but,

weirdly, im posting at 4 am,
whn usually i'd be in lala land by now .

baby's asleep,
shifu's asleep,
mitch bestie is asleep.

i wonder if jie and vinn sleep le .
they kept yawning today ;x
so didnt try to disturb them .

th only ones awake right now,
are rafiq, syafz and me .

i think, we're seriously malfunctioned x.x

3 love struck people .
siannnzxzx .

how do you really know if someone really loves you..?
how do you prove tht you love tht person..?
how do you know if you really "moved on"..?

what does " i love you " really mean ..?

is it a bunch of words strung together?
even if said a thousand and one times, th heart might not change ..

what are th things tht kept you going,
and what were th things tht made you let go..

all th currently 'in-love' couples should be able to answer..
all th un-in-love, will have a different opinion..

i hate this..
really .

cos i'll just be contradicting myself in th near future,
only to be satisfied with an answer for a certain period of time .
wonder if there is ever a real answer ..

thn me and syafz talked about th society .
whether we're are th fcuked up ones or th society ..

fcuked up adolescents . fcuked up society .

im getting tired of th world .

just feel like, lying on th bed..
cutting off all communication and just stare into space..

maybe i should go for tht trip with dy and family,
get away from society and th fcuked upness .
maybe figure out what's really going on in my head..

i think i need a real hobby to get my mind away..
doing syafz's nails seem to work ..

i'll post later today?
i kinda feel worn out but not sleepy..

-SHAA

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fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck .
i still cant sleep .

someone knock me unconscious please .

stupid brain . stupid overdrive . stupid me .


where are you baby... where did you go....

why arent you around anymore..................