why ..
why couldnt it just be a joke ..

why cant i wake up .. and breathe a sigh of relief,
knowing tht my friend isnt suffering alone ..
no, scratch tht ..

knowing tht my friend, my god 'mum', is safe and well .

i want to wake up, to see her happy and bullying eehwa with jie and me ..
without a care in th world .. just like th past ..

this lifetime sucks .
she deserves to have a better life .
a non suffering life ..

val mummy, im praying .. i've been always praying tht you'd come out safe .. please ..

fight back with everything you've got !

dont go . dont leave me jie and eehwa .

you still got tht steamboat with them ..

you've always been there for me. from primary school til now .
i want to show you how much i appreciate you,
so you better be well !

you wanted to help others dont you..?
you have to get better . or or . i hot war you til you get better !

please mummy,
dont give up ..

i'll always .. jie will always.. eehwa will always..
we will always be there for you .
just say th word .

we'll be there . no matter what .
please .

i hope you can read this ..
get better ... please ..

- SHAA