i guess i should not be alive for a few weeks or so .
i should have know all this..

wouldnt last .

kai and joshy ..
xiaoting and cherie ..
jasper and simin ..
daen and alex ..
shyo and vinn ..
zac and diane ..
val and eehwa ..
ting ting jie jie ..

for th girls ..
im only good enough ..
to support them whnever their hearts' broken ..
or to find out stuff from th guys ..

for th guys ..
im just a friend ..
and will always be .. just .. the friend ..
always th one to be able to talk to ..
to share secrets and whatever crap ..

and always be th one to be used ..
over and over again ..

now,
it doesnt matter ..
i will hide from them ..
i guess i'll still play maple abit ..
without them knowing, of course ..
especially not her ..

im doing all these is because ..
i dont want to have her feeling bad because she's jealous .
i can tell her over and over again tht my intentions ..
are not what she thinks it is ..
but it doesnt change th fact tht at most times ..
im close to the one she cares about th most .

and living with th guy who she is friends with ..

this time ..
poofing will take a seriously hard time ..
i need a job .. badly .. and quickly ..

- SHAA