T^T
im like ... so so sooooo depressed can ?
T-T

no phone ..
no music ..
AHH T_______T

my phone .. is officially hospitalized ..
at Nokia Care .

ARGHS !
im so so stressed cann ? T-T

currently using mom's phone to contact ppl .
until korkor comes back to give me my old phone ..
HAIZ !!

i hope i can survive 3-4 days .
I CANT STAND IT LAA .
NO PHONEE .

sickening flu .
keep sneeze sneeze .
i wont be suprised if my nose dropped off .
LOL .

THAT will be like something super damn funny to see .
a NOSE-less SHAA .
LOLLL .

went to Lot 1 .
bought a scarf and a cardigan .
heeees .
its cuteeeee alright ?
HAHAHAS .

talking to simin pigu kaya-spread-on-bread-for-me-to-eat .
IS NICEE .
damnn lame .

mei ah .
we really should make that BBQ and and the MEHMEH shoppe .
LOLL
and and horr .
wo bu yao chi zumbakkk !!
RAWRHS .


and to TING and CHERYL .
welcome to my heartbreakk .
LOLL .

Zachary ;
didi . i dont know what made you bo mood .
but, dont keep it to yourself cann ?
i can always try to make you feel better ..
cos that's what you've always been doing for me ..

i was never close enough, to see the problems hidden behind in you .
even after 2 years, nothing changed .
but its not to late to try is it ?
didi .. if you are willing to ..
share with me your thoughts about things, will you .. ?

---
on another note ..

im sorry ..
i had to reject you ..
i dont want to hurt you ..
cos, i still cant let go of him ..

if i accepted you, and still think about him ..
it will be unfair to you..
and i dont have the heart nor courage to do so ..

thanks for telling me, how you felt about me .
im touched .. and i felt loved .
but ..
no matter how hard i tried ..
i cant seem to love you, anything more than a bestie ..

im sorry ..
just ...
move on please ..

PS: LESSY AND SCANDAL !!!! <3333333 !!!

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY LOVEEEES :DD

- SHAA

{ EDIT }

just a few more hours til that day ..
just a few more hours til my second breakdown ..
oh wait ..
what am i talking ..

im already breaking down ..

im weaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk . rawrhs .
i cant believe i broke down ..

lessy said im strong enough not to be broken til today ..
but why do i still feel like shyt ..

didi is mad . phone is gone . and im breaking down .
let the day get worse why dont you .. ?
maybe i'll find out he's with May .
wooo .

that'll be something great . Lol .

i hate this . you know ?
i dont know where you are ..
i want and dont want to be a part of your life .

if i could .
i just never want to re-appear .
if you didnt run away ..
i still might have poof-ed from you ..
slowly being happy ..

force myself to love another ..
let this dead heart .. lie in the bed of thorns and roses .

do you know how hard it is to breathe now ?
do you know how hard it is to laugh now ?
do you know how hard it is to smile now ?
do you know how hard it is to .. live now ?

tomorrow .. will be the day ..
i dont know who i am ..
or where i stand ..

an empty shell with smile and a dead mischevious look .

rest in peace, my other half ..

its time to bring her out ..
she slept .. too long already ..

- SHAA

{ /EDIT }