i promised to myself that i will never be sad ever again .
i promised to myself that no tears will be shed .
but why do these tears fall .. ?

im talking to scandal on msn and im feeling really happy,
but i cant stop these tears .
and the best part is ..
i dont even know what they are for .

i miss alot of things i guess .
i miss those happy crazy times .
back when i had the best mei in the world .

but now, it seems .
she's really far away from me .
where is our date of chocolates, candy, bubbletea and ice cream ?
we havent had that yet .
but now you're already gone .
and i doubt you'll be coming back .

i had a good friend once, never failed to make me laugh .
her and her retarded rainbows and cup noodles .
her promises to hold her faulty flashlight for me .
but again, just like my mei .
she disappeared on me .
and never to return, i guess .

were all those words you said to me,
empty words and promises ?
or is this just my own demise ?

letting go of just one person .. just that one ..
would mean i have to let go
of all my friendships i had with him too ?

its not like im not happy with my new friends .
i am . i really truly am .
but just like them, you're irreplaceable .
there's only one you .
and only one of them .
everyone is special to me ..
but why is it that ..
i cant hold on to both of my friendships .

twas' a happy day today .
jiejie was the best !
but now that she's home .
im feeling alone, once again .