it hurts ..
when you act like you dont care ..
you keep making me wonder .
but i will never say it to you ..
im too afraid to do so.
i dont want to repeat mistakes .
i guess that's me ..
always hiding behind a shadow ..
always putting on a show ..


my life ..
his life ..
her life ..
their life ..

nothing can ever come as one huh ?

lying to myself over and over again ..
keep running away ..
i guess i'll be a little selfish from now on ..

oh btw ;
hey jem bestie .
lols .
thanks for knowing ..
whenever im crying inside ..
hahas.
too bad though .
my mask will never fade away ..

hehs .
im tired ..
of trying to please everybody ..
its really ..
taking a toll on me ..

if i make one person happy .
there will be a person unhappy bcos of it .

what do you want me to do huh ?
just fcuking say it to my face !

you know ...
i can drop dead whenever .
i dont care anymore ..

im all smiles and laughter ; just an illusion .
but nobody will ever know,
the true feelings that lies within me.

i really feel like running away ..
and never come back ..
but yet again ..
i cant ..
cos i have my responsibilities .

hais .
fuck him .
fuck friends .
fuck family .
fuck the world .
fuck everyone la .
including me ..


- SHAA