hohos .
i am in a place where normal people play games .
but im super duper bored .
thus i am blogging to pass the time .

hmm .
feeling weird weird .
hoho.
zacky is watching me as i type this .
haas .
i love him
my first gan dii .

he is LOVED!

lols . i dont know what im thinking anymore .
here is where i can properly blog
and say my feelings .
abit of it anyway .
lols .

recently .
the only image i keep seeing in my head is .
well .
strangely enough ..
is death .
i keep thinking when and where i will die .
fuggin creepy ._.

so in this post ..
i will be thanking everyone who are important to me ..

if your name isnt here ..
you do mean something to me ..
but ..
these are the people who mean more to me .

S.T.T aka Potato Jie .

she's been with me for five years .
suffering the torture frm the teachers with me ..
going through teenage angst together ..
we got betrayed by the one we thought was our best friend .
jiejie was devastated ..
but admist it all ..
there's something good that came out from that .
we got closer and now.. i can safely say that
i'll go through the ends of the world with her without question .
all she needs to do is to ask me whether i wanna die ..
and without hesistation i will be right by her side .

jie.. thank you for everything . treating me whenever .
allowing me hug and bully you.
LOLS . even though you always 'rejected' me ..
you are my best and only jiejie .
nobody can replace the friendship you've given me ..
i was alone in school once but ..
you were the only one who treated me like a real person.
your intentions towards friendship was pure ..
and im grateful to you ..
ting ting jiejie . xiexie . really .
no words can measure how much i owe you ..
even a lifetime isnt enough .
hahas . jiejie . mei loves you naa (:

Jasper aka Heihei

hahas. baby (:
my boyfriend and a best friend.
you taught me .. to properly treasure what you have.
and to forgive and forget.
appreciate what has happened ..
and eventhough it hurts ..
time will heal the pain and we just have to move on ..
and we're to live life to the fullest despite the troubles we're are facing.
you taught me to be grateful to the friends surrounding me.
somehow. thanks to you .
im learning how to properly fall in love .
lols .

im glad i knew you eh . lolls .
you always make me laugh like siao de .
spamming simin, your jokes & your orbi quack . lols .
although sometimes i dont understand you and the things that you do ..
my heart still loves you . hohos .
sorry about yesterday . was feeling weird.
i dont know what's happening to me anymore ..
maybe im just ...
feeling out of it ..
thanks for sticking with me all this while ..
hope you still will walk with me till the very end ..
i guess .. im dependent on you . hahas .
your long long sms .. your poems ..
your randomness ..
lolls .. all the words that you said made me
feel .. fuzzy wuzzy. lols.
baby was there with me when shit happened .
you protected me ..
you defended me ..
even though you knew them longer ..
you stood by me ..
thanks for letting me in ..
thanks for everything that you have done ..
i love you .

Zac Dii

achary . baby dii . LOLS .
i still remember the day we first met ..
i still remember how you became my dii ..
i still remember your face when i pinched your cheeks for the first time..
dii is always with me ..
when i got bullied or whatever ..
he will argue with that person till that guy obedient like a real dog .
no matter what i did to him, he never got mad at me .
we had our disagreements ..
but what siblings never fought before right ?
he's been with me for 2 years and 9 months . lols .
from maple .. to audition to real life ..
he was once shorter than me and i relish that thought, even now .

DIDI !!!!
hohos . i cant believe i missed you out . bleahs .
i scuk . RAHHS !
dii . we're gonna be 3 years soon leii .
hahas . you and ayu 3 years ++ le .
didi . thank you for everything ..
no matter how many years will pass by us ..
or if we ever lost contact ..
you will always be my diii ..
and the one i will never forget .
thanks for sticking to me all these years .
i have seen you change ..
and you have seen how i changed too .
i cant believe it ..
how much you changed ..
and with your church ..
you became more matured yet ..
you are still the dii that i know 2 years go ..
vulgarities aside ..
you are the dii that i love most .
sorry for pangseh-ing you during certain meetings .
you have your emo moments and so have i ..
didi ..
jiejie ai ni naa .
thanks for being in my life and letting me meet Bell . LOLS ((:

dii . remember how we met ?
and i guess i have to thank that girl too huh ?
lols . because of her .. you became my dii . LOLS

Eda .

my cousin . the one who always has my back .
whenever i lied to my mom about going out.
she always will be my alibi . hahas .
funny really .
she's weird sometimes but that's what makes her special.
despite misunderstandings and childish feuds .
she was always there for me .
but i wasnt there for her alot of times .
appreciate your efforts so bloody much .
[ and dii . stop reading whatever i type ._. ]

hey cuz .
thanks for being.. well.. you .
we had alot of good times didnt we?
from the baby cot up til where we are now ..
from DG to DGG to the new and improved DGG .
lols .
and not to forget our Seigaku phase .
lolls .
kaoz . it was always so damn bloody fun!
and cuz .. thank you yeah ??
you always had food for me to eat ..
from already prepared to your delicious sushi .
HAHAS !
remember the trip to EC ?
we cooked didnt we ?
all three of us ..
and Ben was there to give entertainment.
LOOLLS !
you are always adored by me okay ?
i will do my very best to stand by you (:

Ayu .

hahas . a real good friend . lols .
cheery & happy go lucky but damn insecure .
another person that i depend on greatly .
you and eda were there when i cried like farkk .
thanks for your support eh .
i appreciate it .
you gave me the smiles and jokes i needed to go on with life.
i was broken then but you gave me words
that opened my eyes to accept reality ..
you gave your all .. and always did the things i requested ..
you never said no to me ..
lollls . even as a joke . you were constantly supporting me.

ayu ahh .
you horr . should have more confidence in yourself .
dont worry so much about that guy eh . hahas .
i believe .. you will get what you want .
just dont lose your friend over a guy .
its .. not worth it . really . (:
sis ..
thank you oh so very much ..
hahs . sorry for being a pain in your arse all this while aye ?
lools .
you always had a free ear whenever im facing any problems,
always had a hug ready for me..
i can never thank you enough for being my support for so many years.
sorry i wasnt there when u were putting on a mask.
i will change okay ? i will be there now ..
i wont let you slip into solitude .
you will never be alone anymore ..
i will be there till my last breath ..

Syafz

another cousin . my fashionista .
a person that i try to constantly mimic in the past.
she's so spastic and fun loving.
her laughter is as contagious as the flu .
and she never fails to cheer me up .
in the childhood days .
when vulgarities didnt exist in our dictionaries .
we called each other names ..
she called me a pig and i called her an elephant .
we never talked for awhile ..
then when we met again ..
it was like .. everything was forgotten ..
we were close den we fell apart and got close again ..
through so many phases ..
paul twohill ; roti prata ; work .

SYAFZOO !
you are always so fun and giggly .
nobody will know what problems you are facing ..
times like this ..
i wish i could turn back time ..
really .
you and your blur-ness .
lols .
now the time has fly by ..
you got your own life to lead now ..
but if you need a shoulder to cry on ..
you know im always there for you ..
i wont get lost at the Checkpoint anymore.
lolls .
cuz (:
thanks for everything .

Nora

hohos . my baby sis . and cam whore partner .
you always bring a smile to my face .
and you push me to my limits
making me promise things that i thought i could never achieve .
she's the reason why i got 8 points for my N lvl ..
a promise to her ; meant alot to me..
she is constantly faced with some fugging problem,
but that didnt stop her from trying her best.
in a way, her perseverance is something
that i really idolized and i hope to mimic it.

heya baby sis .
i know you haven heard much from me and vice versa ..
but thanks for making me smile and laugh like nobody's business .
HAHAS !
i will never forget our gay boy at KAP okays ?
that is a memory of weirdness that i will never forget
hahas . we have alot weird meetings eh ?
and promises have to be upholded okayy ?
i kept my end of the stick xDD
i know we have our misunderstandings .
and cos of that bastard .. we werent as close anymore huh ?
but sis dearest . you are still and always will be loved by me ..

Mitch

my bestie for 8 long gone years.
from geeky primary school years til
graduation of the '07 batch .
could always run to him when i feel like crying
or when i feel like hitting something .
lols .
he's always smiling despite his emo look. LOL
talking to him on the phone til the wee hours of the morning.
silence was never a problem between us .
arguments and weird experiences made us distant for a few months
but we'll always get back together.
lolls .

mitchie bestie (:
thanks for standing behind me .
pushing me to go on whenever i felt like giving up.
you and your power rangers history never fails to make me
laugh till my stomach hurts .
the web cams ..
the harry potter bonding moments.
you were such a terrible liar during pri school
and im a dumbass for swallowing every word you said .
lols !
years have gone .. and now you are far away from me ..
but you still contacted me every once in a while ..
thanks ehh .
hope your genting trip goes well .
takecare bestie and thanks again

Simin

haas . simin meii . my pigu meii . hahas . yesyes .
continue to say that you are smart okay ?
hhaas .
simin ..
she makes me happy ..
im happy she let me in close enough into her life ..
to help her with whatever she faces ..
i cant wait to meet her !

ahh . pigu meii .
you horr !
talk more in conference cann ?
rahhhs !
you play song only .
loools
POKE YOU AH !
rawr rawr .
your voice cute cute lai de .
LOLLS !
no matter what .. you are beloved meii Y

lols . i know u dont read my blog anymore but .. thanks okay ?
even when i gave you shitty attitude and ran away from you ..
you followed me and tried to cheer me up ..
lols . sorry okay ?
thanks for your memories .
last long with her okays ?
:DDDDDDDD
i wish you all the best . lols .

Rayland Dii

stupid horny ass didi.
he's the other diidii that always gets bullied by me.
from hitting him to upshirting him .
but he always gave that silly smile of his .
forever with his 50 dollar notes .
but diidii ..
disappeared on me for awhile ..
when he was with HY ..
and now .. we're arent close anymore .
lols . but he will always be my dii dii (:

lols . you horr .
stop honging le la .
lols .
and i dont approve of you doing bad stuff .
you better dont hor .
or i will fcuk u up u know ._.
get one and stay true ok ? lols .
you and your lame jokes .
lols . thanks for all those chats yeaaa ? ;3

Cheston Kor aka sn0wball

kor .
a stupid person .
rahhs .
irritating luhhs .
yet.. lols .
he treats me like a real sis ..
and i guess that's the reason why
im constantly reprimanded by him .
he was never there,
because i didnt want him to ..
but he taught me things ..
and for a moment in life ..
im glad for it ..