omg omg omg.
bleahs.
i hate this .

happy in the morn and afternoon.
now its in the evening .
and im hearing so many depressing news .

my sweetest baby sis .
is going to quit school.
bcos she thinks she cant make it .

sis . this is only the mid-years for crying out loud .
you wanted to make it badly didnt you ?
sis .
you forced me to promise you that i will pass my N lvls and
we'll go through the Os TOGETHER!

i kept my promise lei.
kaoz.
i even had 8 points.
I STUDIED FOR YOU SIS !
I EVEN PASSED MATHS LEI !
you know how hard ..
it is to make me study ?
like.. study for real ?

if i wanted to keep a promise ..
i'll go all out ..
you know that ..

sis .
i really kept my promise to you .
but im slacking now ..
i dont know why ..

dont give up please ?
we still have the plan to go all out
for the EOY chalet with zak and the rest didnt we ?
dont let everything go like that ..


haiis .
jiejie's mummy is going for an op somewhere during august .
jie's arm is hurt & i dont know the cause .
jess is going through some family problem and is in a worse state than me.
oh, i hope i wont let her down ..
mummy is unconscious. fainted from fatigue.
zz.
im such a fcked up daughter la..

mummy ; im sorry.
i will make it up to you .
this is a promise that i'll do anything to keep .


T-T
im scared ..
im really really scared ..
everything is going so wrong .
and i really dont know what to do .
gosh la .
i wish i can be in the safety your arms right now ..
even for a second ..

bleahs.
i should stop thinking about it.
not the right time ..
maybe never will be .. ><

oh my savior ;
give me the strength to carry on ..
whisper to me the words of encouragement ..
lead me to path that im supposed to follow ..
i know i made my mistakes .
and im ready to repent and atone my sins.
hold me close ; open my heart once again ..
i lay my life in your hands ..

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damn !@#@#$#%$^ already la

finally that little girl, uh i mean nora nt me ..
got some sense into her head ..

sis ;
i promise to help you alright ?
bio ;DD
that is something i confirm can help ^^
the rest.
im sorry but i GG in it already ><
but but..
dont worry ok ?

uhh.
i cant promise i will stop slacking but !
i will cut down on it .
i will help you sis ..
no matter what it takes ..
im still the same crazy girl right now ..

and this girl will help you..
till everything is over.
then..
we'll see how it goes ..
ok ?

miss ya sis . you know i do (:



jemtakecareofyourselfhehs.



- SHAA